Your dark secrets
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Honestly, could you PM me some of it? I'm genuinely interested in modern warfare and the soldiers in it. I find it fascinating that you're a soldier (for some reason) and it now makes sense that every other post you make, is about you getting in a fight and winning : PRawne1980 said:
Hrmmmm. The problem with this is that the internet doesn't "fully" provide the anonymity you think. But what the hell! I have nothing to lose.
I'm a tansgender. Have been for around ten years plus. Only recently have I started doing anything about it. I start HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy) in December. It's odd, because everywhere I go I hear so many horror stories that trans people have to go through. Yet, I haven't had one bad experience to say of.
Well, yet.
I'm a tansgender. Have been for around ten years plus. Only recently have I started doing anything about it. I start HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy) in December. It's odd, because everywhere I go I hear so many horror stories that trans people have to go through. Yet, I haven't had one bad experience to say of.
Well, yet.
What more could you possibly ask for?! XDAylaine said:Maybe! That would definitely be a dark secret of theirs then, if it's the case. XDFappy said:Gah,Aylaine said:freudian slipstypos! XD
She's actually really sweet and soft spoken... though, I suppose those types of girls generally are the closet freaks!
"Sweet, but freaky in the sheets. Seems legit."
*perv highfive*
This thread has gotten a shocking outcome, well done everyone!
mmm...well I may as well add another.
I am transgender (pretty sure everyone on this site knows that) but what you may NOT know is that...well, I have kinda 'topped' by identical twin brother. Multiple times.
Now I pose to you: BEAT THAT! >:3
mmm...well I may as well add another.
I am transgender (pretty sure everyone on this site knows that) but what you may NOT know is that...well, I have kinda 'topped' by identical twin brother. Multiple times.
Now I pose to you: BEAT THAT! >:3
Hmmm, I guess one of my secrets is that I used my twin sister as a social crutch for so long that I don't know how to instigate or maintain close friendships on my own, and I'm starting to develop a sort of social awkwardness as a result, particularly now that I've been going to a different college than her and have been moving backwards in terms of social skills instead of the forward momentum I was expecting.
My sense of confidence, particularly as a musician, plummeted in college, as I constantly perceive every percussionist in studio as superior to me, especially concerning anything other than mallet percussion. I've had this mentality creep into my consciousness so consistently at some points that I experienced what may have been a form of depression; feeling constantly tired, uncharacteristically low self-worth, unable to find joy in the things that I love, and finding myself in tears when I found times that I was completely alone, while often holding them back when I wasn't. I'm just lucky that I'm too adverse to physical pain (and terrified of wrist injuries) to inflict any self-harm.
I also had a brief period last semester where I was starting to perceive myself as "broken" because I've never been capable of falling in love and have never desired sex. That mentality went away after realizing that I'm an asexual (and an aromantic one at that), but I still don't have the drive to tell most people about it because I don't want to risk being judged, especially by people I've come to trust, especially since it's such an obscure orientation and tends to require a pretty decent amount of time to explain and sort through all the intimate questions people ask about it.
Oh, and to top it off, I've never had a full reign on my emotions. I used to have small mental reactions that my body would overreact to, so I'd be a crying mess when I was mentally okay, but it's more recently evolved into having slightly more control of the bodily reactions while the mental reactions are much more out of control. I also don't think my body knows how to react to anger, because once I hit a certain threshold, my body defaults to crying, which is probably the last thing I want to happen when I'm in a blinding rage. I've considered getting psychological help for this, but my family still helps with my finances, and they're against the idea of me getting help for it (they think I'll grow out of it, even though I'm 19 and still have this problem), so I'd rather be interrogated by family about it.
You know, I didn't even think I had "dark secrets" before writing this since I'm such an open book to most people (partially because I don't know what's too personal to say in some situations,) and I go out of my way to be an optimist in most situations. Some of the people closest to me know about some of these items I mentioned, and a couple are ones I never felt the need to tell others about. I'm assuming that this post will incite a tl;dr reaction too, so I guess my "dark secrets" will stay as well hidden as a tree in a forest for the most part.
My sense of confidence, particularly as a musician, plummeted in college, as I constantly perceive every percussionist in studio as superior to me, especially concerning anything other than mallet percussion. I've had this mentality creep into my consciousness so consistently at some points that I experienced what may have been a form of depression; feeling constantly tired, uncharacteristically low self-worth, unable to find joy in the things that I love, and finding myself in tears when I found times that I was completely alone, while often holding them back when I wasn't. I'm just lucky that I'm too adverse to physical pain (and terrified of wrist injuries) to inflict any self-harm.
I also had a brief period last semester where I was starting to perceive myself as "broken" because I've never been capable of falling in love and have never desired sex. That mentality went away after realizing that I'm an asexual (and an aromantic one at that), but I still don't have the drive to tell most people about it because I don't want to risk being judged, especially by people I've come to trust, especially since it's such an obscure orientation and tends to require a pretty decent amount of time to explain and sort through all the intimate questions people ask about it.
Oh, and to top it off, I've never had a full reign on my emotions. I used to have small mental reactions that my body would overreact to, so I'd be a crying mess when I was mentally okay, but it's more recently evolved into having slightly more control of the bodily reactions while the mental reactions are much more out of control. I also don't think my body knows how to react to anger, because once I hit a certain threshold, my body defaults to crying, which is probably the last thing I want to happen when I'm in a blinding rage. I've considered getting psychological help for this, but my family still helps with my finances, and they're against the idea of me getting help for it (they think I'll grow out of it, even though I'm 19 and still have this problem), so I'd rather be interrogated by family about it.
You know, I didn't even think I had "dark secrets" before writing this since I'm such an open book to most people (partially because I don't know what's too personal to say in some situations,) and I go out of my way to be an optimist in most situations. Some of the people closest to me know about some of these items I mentioned, and a couple are ones I never felt the need to tell others about. I'm assuming that this post will incite a tl;dr reaction too, so I guess my "dark secrets" will stay as well hidden as a tree in a forest for the most part.
The Rarity avatar doesn't hurt anything either.chinangel said:
Since I'm here might as well dump a non-spontaneously found secret. I'm bisexual, so attracted to 2 genders, specifically female and pre-op male-to-female transgendered (I'm also going to count crossdressers under this)
Mmm... dark secrets of mine? o_o
Well, I guess I sorta have some... namely that internally I can be alot crueler and meaner than most would suspect. This is something I try to cover up as much as I can, but sometimes it comes out when someone really gets to me. Thankfully that has not happened in a very long time.
Also I don't like pizza. It makes me ill when I eat it.
Well, I guess I sorta have some... namely that internally I can be alot crueler and meaner than most would suspect. This is something I try to cover up as much as I can, but sometimes it comes out when someone really gets to me. Thankfully that has not happened in a very long time.
Also I don't like pizza. It makes me ill when I eat it.
Yeah, that would be mine as well.Yureina said:Mmm... dark secrets of mine? o_o
Well, I guess I sorta have some... namely that internally I can be alot crueler and meaner than most would suspect. This is something I try to cover up as much as I can, but sometimes it comes out when someone really gets to me. Thankfully that has not happened in a very long time.
Also I don't like pizza. It makes me ill when I eat it.
It's been years since my own cruel side came out and it's not pretty when it does.
It's funny to me that people have joked with me about being angry and that it would be odd to see me get angry since I'm so laid back and I tend to joke around a lot because they have no idea.
I dream sometimes that i kill either someone i love ruthlessly or just entire droves of people brutally and i don't get caught, the guilt drives me insane to suicide even
needless to say, that day was not good and i couldn't look anyone in the eye
needless to say, that day was not good and i couldn't look anyone in the eye
I keep upsetting women because I take the time to get to know them, woo them, and start seeing them, and then I ice them out and never talk to them again. I know I do it but I don't think I can stop, possibly because I am still in love with a girl I knew for three days when I went on a trip to America.
Also I reinstalled League of Legends after rage-uninstalling and claiming I would never play it again. I have not told my ranked duo partner.
Also I reinstalled League of Legends after rage-uninstalling and claiming I would never play it again. I have not told my ranked duo partner.
Judging from this and your earlier post. Maybe humanity needs a "get-it-out-of-your-system-day" (Vegas-day would properly be a better name for it)Doclector said:
A day where you could be as ungentlemanly as you would like.
So you could to that hot girl/guy and say "Hey, you'r really hot, would you mind having mindless sex with me for 2 hours" she/he still have the right to say no to you but you should not have to fear any restating order being thrown your way.
Or on the other end of the spectrum you would also have the option to go and punch that co-worker, that always makes you end up with all the worst shifts, right in the mouth.
(Of course serious crimes like: murder, rape, vandalism and taking the last parking spot i a 3 mile radius. Would still be punished if committing on this day)
