Do I believe in Love?
I'd seen family members and friends experience something with their partners, something I'd never experienced.
Then I met someone online, initially we became friends, but as time went on it changed and I found something I'd never experienced before.
It wasn't just that I could talk for a long time with her,it wasn't just the irrational happiness that would overwhelm me when I saw her, the way I could make her smile when she was down, the thinking of her during the day, the finding of something that I thought screamed out her name, the way I missed her, it wasn't what I learned from her,her determination to achieve her dreams, her loyalty,her charm,her intelligence,her talent, her bravery,her quirks and mannerisms,it wasn't the little things I'd do to try and see that wonderful smile.
It was that with her I could be completely honest with her, the way she made me feel, the way it time seemed to hold still while we were together, it was all this and more.
Does it hurt that she went back to her ex who hurt her so much? It does but..........she's happy. I'm glad she's happy, just not how she achieved it.
And as much as I hurt that's what matters most to me, her happiness.
Is that Love? If not it's the closest thing I've ever had to it.
So yes, I believe in Love, but sometimes wish I didn't.