- About two/three years ago I completely gave up on a fictional sci-fi universe I had created. I had spend upwards of 8 years on it by then. Most of the work was creating fictional languages and fleshing out cultures, esoteric political systems, stellar cartography and other things that were mostly not directly related to any storyline.
I had started three massive book projects for the universe. I only consider the last one to be a fairly well-composed story (unfortunately I never finished it, so it is a bit of a mess). Its scale was not much more than the interactions between the three main characters (meaning no grand intergalactic wars or anything like that). The book mainly focused on the behavior of their very broken minds, cultural relativism, and discrimination.
- I have severe issues initiating contact. So severe that if my friends didn't contact me, they'd just disappear completely from my life, even if I really liked them. I've never met anyone who is as terrible as me at this. I don't really know why I am like this, for I'm not really anxious to initiate contact. I think it might be because I don't want to bother people or waste their time, and that I'm completely unable to make anyone happy/feel better/etc. (or really give anyone anything at all). It doesn't really help that it makes me feel completely inferior to everyone else.
In essence my own twisted mind says that to be nice to other people, I should not bother them and rather stay away.