Avida said:
Saphatorael said:
Avida said:
"Well there is this girl..."
...and she let my social anxiety resurface. And this is the case with another girl right now again, 2 years later.
It all started waaaay before that, when I was 7 years old (I'm 20 now, yay.). Still trying to sort my life out, but the social aspect will never be fixed. Ah well, that's life, I suppose. Still going to try and make the best of it.
13 years worth of recovery, holy crap
. Would you elaborate on the situation if i asked?
Well, as I said, I'm still trying to figure stuff out. Without trying to sound angsty here, I'll keep it pretty basic.
I was shy and naive back then, and always hung out with girls when I was still in kindergarten. Then I went to a boys-only school, where I was bullied pretty badly, and simply didn't have anyone to talk to.
So... bullying + my own introversion resulted in depression later on, where the psych put me on pills (so hello, physical suffering, I had constant migraine 'till he changed the kind of pills), and certain happenings have put me in quite an annoying situation (I don't drink alcohol, don't smoke, don't do drugs, and I even try to avoid medication when possible nowadays; the no-drinking thing alienates me from my current student environment, somewhat), which I'm still trying to get out of.
Still have trouble starting conversations now, but thankfully there's the internet for typing walls of text anonymously, like this one.