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I'm a narcacist and I have secrets that nobody knows and I will take to the grave.
But you asked for something interesting OP, and I will deliver;
My dreams are pretty fucked up, some of them are very alarming but here's one of the funnier ones. Basically, I'm standing at the top of a waterfall, the water is shallow enough that I'm actually standing in the river, and there's a stall at one side. I go over to it and there's a man and 3 naked women, basically, the guy at the stall would sell me the experience of cycling off the top of a waterfall with a naked pornstar strapped to my back.
True story.
But you asked for something interesting OP, and I will deliver;
My dreams are pretty fucked up, some of them are very alarming but here's one of the funnier ones. Basically, I'm standing at the top of a waterfall, the water is shallow enough that I'm actually standing in the river, and there's a stall at one side. I go over to it and there's a man and 3 naked women, basically, the guy at the stall would sell me the experience of cycling off the top of a waterfall with a naked pornstar strapped to my back.
True story.
every day i wish that I could have a sexual encounter with a werewolf and I can't find myself attracted to anyone who isn't a furry
(I still find the human form attractive, but id just prefer it with more fur)
(I still find the human form attractive, but id just prefer it with more fur)
It's an odd story. I'll tell you some time.DVS BSTrD said:
But not now, because I need to sleep.
Why are so many people taking Daystar's Avvie??!! If Binnysboy hadn't posted that little disclaimer in huge freaking capital letters, I'd have thought he was double posting all over the place!
OT: Well, my most official dark secret is that I had my first sexual experience with my step brother. Actually, my only to be fair. And it sorta fluctuated from consentual to non at times with hints of promising things on one hand and then basically coercing me with taking those things away with the other. Started when I was like 7 and ended up until my last years of high school. He'd have taken my virginity if I hadn't chickened out at the last moment.
No one knows though there was a close call. And no one ever will know. Except you internet peeps, of course.
Um... also, I'm considerably bicurious. I'd really like to lose "both" virginities I guess you could say before I die. No one knows that either. With everyone against homosexuality in my home, it's never getting out either.
My level of prudishness seems to be more extreme than I first though. Perhaps it's over time. But there are some things that just make me so upset and offends my sensibilities so badly, I wanna cray angry tears. And I haven't felt like that since infidelity began to plague me.
OT: Well, my most official dark secret is that I had my first sexual experience with my step brother. Actually, my only to be fair. And it sorta fluctuated from consentual to non at times with hints of promising things on one hand and then basically coercing me with taking those things away with the other. Started when I was like 7 and ended up until my last years of high school. He'd have taken my virginity if I hadn't chickened out at the last moment.
No one knows though there was a close call. And no one ever will know. Except you internet peeps, of course.
Um... also, I'm considerably bicurious. I'd really like to lose "both" virginities I guess you could say before I die. No one knows that either. With everyone against homosexuality in my home, it's never getting out either.
My level of prudishness seems to be more extreme than I first though. Perhaps it's over time. But there are some things that just make me so upset and offends my sensibilities so badly, I wanna cray angry tears. And I haven't felt like that since infidelity began to plague me.
Not really anything to report. Honestly.
I guess... my only one is that if I knew for sure, for absolutely certain, that I would get away with it, I would seriously consider killing my own sister.
I guess that's pretty bad, but it's not really a secret and it's not that I'd want to kill her, rather I just want her dead.
before you judge me, you should know that she made my life hell from the age of 14 until when I left for university and continues to make my mum's and, by extension, grandparent's lives miserable. My mum was affected so badly she was on anti-depressants for years and still is sometimes.
We'd all be better off if she ceased to be.
I just really, really hate her.
In all other regards I'm completely normal and, let's be honest, I'd never actually do it. I can barely even kill spiders!
I guess... my only one is that if I knew for sure, for absolutely certain, that I would get away with it, I would seriously consider killing my own sister.
I guess that's pretty bad, but it's not really a secret and it's not that I'd want to kill her, rather I just want her dead.
before you judge me, you should know that she made my life hell from the age of 14 until when I left for university and continues to make my mum's and, by extension, grandparent's lives miserable. My mum was affected so badly she was on anti-depressants for years and still is sometimes.
We'd all be better off if she ceased to be.
I just really, really hate her.
In all other regards I'm completely normal and, let's be honest, I'd never actually do it. I can barely even kill spiders!
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I'm needy to the point of obsession. You'd never know it if you met me face to face. I keep to myself, don't speak unless spoken to, do nothing to attract attention to myself. But drop me off at a message board, and in the relative anonymity of posting behind a username, I will go nuts. It's like when they tell you to imagine your audience naked when giving a speech. That's what I do with the internet. For confidence, you know.
Also, if I don't hear from my friends for a day or two, I assume they're deliberately avoiding me and go all Party of One on their ass. I think I'm pretty good at hiding the crazy though, since I don't think they've realized it yet. That, or I have better friends than I deserve.
I've only had romantic feelings for one person in my whole life, more specifically I've had these feelings for the past 16~ years. She, however, likely doesn't even remember me anymore.
I'm needy to the point of obsession. You'd never know it if you met me face to face. I keep to myself, don't speak unless spoken to, do nothing to attract attention to myself. But drop me off at a message board, and in the relative anonymity of posting behind a username, I will go nuts. It's like when they tell you to imagine your audience naked when giving a speech. That's what I do with the internet. For confidence, you know.
Also, if I don't hear from my friends for a day or two, I assume they're deliberately avoiding me and go all Party of One on their ass. I think I'm pretty good at hiding the crazy though, since I don't think they've realized it yet. That, or I have better friends than I deserve.
I've only had romantic feelings for one person in my whole life, more specifically I've had these feelings for the past 16~ years. She, however, likely doesn't even remember me anymore.
I like to think.
I have thought of enough lands that to give a comprehensive tour would be like taking a trip to every country in the world.
I have thought of enough creatures to fill said lands to bursting with wildlife, all of which act as my little mind pets.
Finally, every character I have come up with leaves an impression on me if I grow to like them. Without them I doubt that I would have any personality to speak of. It is sort of an impasse; I give them life in my head, and they give me something to add to my person in return.
I have thought of enough lands that to give a comprehensive tour would be like taking a trip to every country in the world.
I have thought of enough creatures to fill said lands to bursting with wildlife, all of which act as my little mind pets.
Finally, every character I have come up with leaves an impression on me if I grow to like them. Without them I doubt that I would have any personality to speak of. It is sort of an impasse; I give them life in my head, and they give me something to add to my person in return.
I'm a manipulative dickhole.
I can shift people in the directions I want them to go or feel, and have no problem using other peoples feelings to get what I want.
I also really can't connect with anyone romantically, maybe its because I know there are people out there like me who will use you at the drop of a hat or what, but I can only be in non-committal relationships, committing as a whole scares the shit out of me.
I can shift people in the directions I want them to go or feel, and have no problem using other peoples feelings to get what I want.
I also really can't connect with anyone romantically, maybe its because I know there are people out there like me who will use you at the drop of a hat or what, but I can only be in non-committal relationships, committing as a whole scares the shit out of me.
I have such severe trust issues that I'll never put myself in a position to owe anyone, or be owed anything (of serious value), and I can't have healthy relationships with women because I assume the worst from them, and never let it progress to the point of becoming serious. I've broke up with my first GF, and then in every subsequent one chose to sabotage it by being a total dick so that *they* would come to the conclusion.
Granted, I haven't had a GF since I was 16, though... but the same issues exist, and I don't see myself ever having a relationship last over a month.
Granted, I haven't had a GF since I was 16, though... but the same issues exist, and I don't see myself ever having a relationship last over a month.
ok, here goes.
Apart from the times when I become an extremely confident arrogant asshole, I am generally very afraid of interaction with other people. There are 2 reasons for this, I am terrified of hurting others, in any way, however minor, or even just make slightly less happy, the other thing is that I am also terrified of hurting people's good image of me. Most people I know seem to think of me as a very nice guy because I really try very hard to be one.
The problem here is that I am afraid about how much of this comes back to the second part about self image, I honestly can't tell if most of the reason I act the way I do is about my self image, and a major reason I don't want to hurt anyway is because I don't want to damage their view of me. So basically I'm not sure if I am a heavily self-centred asshole who is nice to others to preserve self image.
....it sounds silly when I say it.
Apart from the times when I become an extremely confident arrogant asshole, I am generally very afraid of interaction with other people. There are 2 reasons for this, I am terrified of hurting others, in any way, however minor, or even just make slightly less happy, the other thing is that I am also terrified of hurting people's good image of me. Most people I know seem to think of me as a very nice guy because I really try very hard to be one.
The problem here is that I am afraid about how much of this comes back to the second part about self image, I honestly can't tell if most of the reason I act the way I do is about my self image, and a major reason I don't want to hurt anyway is because I don't want to damage their view of me. So basically I'm not sure if I am a heavily self-centred asshole who is nice to others to preserve self image.
....it sounds silly when I say it.
I like fire. Not in the "getting-an-orgasm" from it kind of way, just the "look at this awesome burning forest" kind of way.
And yes, I've created forest fires, but I would never do it anywhere were anyone could get hurt.
And yes, I've created forest fires, but I would never do it anywhere were anyone could get hurt.
I genuinely liked the Schumaker Batman films to the point that I would sooner watch Batman Forever before sitting through Dark Knight Rises again.
I secretly hope my step-dad is my biological Dad. The guy who was with mom and has claims to be my bio-Dad is just a manipulative bastard who I want nothing to do with.
I secretly hope my step-dad is my biological Dad. The guy who was with mom and has claims to be my bio-Dad is just a manipulative bastard who I want nothing to do with.
I enjoyed the first Twilight book and read the other three as well...also a guy. The horrible, dark secret part though...I hated Two Towers and did not enjoy The Lord of the Rings. I loved The Hobbit but I did not like The Rings trilogy.Alcamonic said: