I have defiantly considered it, when I was between the ages of 14 and 17 it was almost a daily thought for me, I was constantly in a bad place, daily beet downs from the school jerks, being harassed for my religious beliefs, all being offset by my brother, who could be himself anywhere and be loved by everyone (don't get me wrong, I love my brother). The only girl I ever went out with in highschool dumped me for a guy in an awful "Deathcore" band. Admittedly I did not have the worst life, but those tendencies still get to allot of people in different ways, and I now try to help anyone who needs it when it comes to suicide.
Have you ever thought about suicide?
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Yup, Jr High, worst 2 years of my life, didn't think I had a future worth living, but I never had the guts to do it either.
Wow, that was pretty dark even for me... well I can assure all of you high school is what saved my life. I made friends who will stick by me as we take on college, moved in with my father who was my only friend for the longest time and I can thank him as well, and I even became the nicest, social, and most respected person in my school, with a rep of being the coolest nerd. I even performed a dance for my schools pageant, and got a standing ovation.
I guess you can say thoughts like those can make or break a person. Builds character ect. ect.
Wow, that was pretty dark even for me... well I can assure all of you high school is what saved my life. I made friends who will stick by me as we take on college, moved in with my father who was my only friend for the longest time and I can thank him as well, and I even became the nicest, social, and most respected person in my school, with a rep of being the coolest nerd. I even performed a dance for my schools pageant, and got a standing ovation.
I guess you can say thoughts like those can make or break a person. Builds character ect. ect.
Closest I've ever come was legitimately considering killing someone, I didn't of course, but for several weeks I honestly considered taking another persons life. I've never before or after thought like that, and I've never considered suicide.
Goddamn, there are WAAAAY more "yes, I've considered/wanted to commit suicide" posts on here than I thought there'd be.
For me, never. I don't mean to sound impersonal, but life is what you make of it, and if you wake up every day feeling like life isn't worth living try your best to CHANGE that - don't just mope and feel comfort in death. Suicide is a cop-out on a chance to benefit the world.
I don't mean benefit the world in a huge way, necessarily, but find a purpose. Volunteer at soup kitchens or shelters. See how bad some people really have it, and know that you are making their lives slightly better. You know, the feeling could be mutual.
Volunteering has gotten me through some rough times. It brings me into perspective and makes me feel like I'm doing something right.
For me, never. I don't mean to sound impersonal, but life is what you make of it, and if you wake up every day feeling like life isn't worth living try your best to CHANGE that - don't just mope and feel comfort in death. Suicide is a cop-out on a chance to benefit the world.
I don't mean benefit the world in a huge way, necessarily, but find a purpose. Volunteer at soup kitchens or shelters. See how bad some people really have it, and know that you are making their lives slightly better. You know, the feeling could be mutual.
Volunteering has gotten me through some rough times. It brings me into perspective and makes me feel like I'm doing something right.
Public suicide is just selfish and sad. Little kids could see that shit. It could scar them for life.New Frontiersman said:
I don't see the point.
If you're ever at a point where you have nothing to lose, you can go run away, learn martial arts from a monastery, join the circus, kidnap people to release in a wilderness only navigatable by you so you can hunt them, Forrest Gump across America, jump into a zoo's tiger cage and fight the tiger, the list goes on.
If you're ever at a point where you have nothing to lose, you can go run away, learn martial arts from a monastery, join the circus, kidnap people to release in a wilderness only navigatable by you so you can hunt them, Forrest Gump across America, jump into a zoo's tiger cage and fight the tiger, the list goes on.
Well, I may say I've thought about it, but I've never even actively seeked the means to do so. I think I can also say that I've figured out a "chicken-proof" way to do it, but my life means a lot to my parents and my troubles are not at all as unbearable as they are inconvenient.
I think I just have a pretty good life overall.
I think I just have a pretty good life overall.
Tried it over the summer after my life disintegrated into a fine mist of shattered dreams and absolute solitude. Tried to empty a bottle of Adderall; didn't get far enough into it before I ended up hurling it back up.
P.S. Kids, don't use Adderall or any other amphetamine/methylphenidate/stimulant to knock yourself off. The ensuing heart attack will be INCREDIBLY painful and you'll probably be hallucinating wildly throughout.
P.P.S. Just be safe about it and don't knock yourself off period. Someday, you will get to fuck them back.
P.S. Kids, don't use Adderall or any other amphetamine/methylphenidate/stimulant to knock yourself off. The ensuing heart attack will be INCREDIBLY painful and you'll probably be hallucinating wildly throughout.
P.P.S. Just be safe about it and don't knock yourself off period. Someday, you will get to fuck them back.
I have very severe medical depression and seriously considering suicide is a weekly event. I have my boyfriend/fiance to keep me from it but I've still had several serious attempts. Guess I suck at killing myself. I honestly can't help it and no medication seems to help. Good times.
It crosses my mind from time to time and I did attempt it once a couple years ago. Since then I haven't come close to attempting it again. Thank goodness for that.
My life may not really be all that great, but I just try to focus on the few things I have going for me.
My life may not really be all that great, but I just try to focus on the few things I have going for me.
I have considered it, but never attempted... Technically. Okay, there was this one time in grade seven that I had this "big" math test the following day and I didn't study at all, so the plan was the old "sick day" except one problem; I can't FAKE sick, my parents always knew. So I thought the best way was to GET sick. And I did that by taking 7 advils pills... Did it work? Well yeah, you could say that. But I actually ended up being sick for 3 days, my parents were extremely worried and thought it was a suicide attempt, put me through a years worth of therapy and anti-depressants.... Oh the test? I passed with an 89%.
Unlike most cases, my thoughts of suicide have were not during middle school, in fact they were recent. Since leaving High School life hasn't been easy for me. In a way, I feel like I just can't catch a break you know? How can I break this down? I'll just list the ones that hover over me everyday:
- The girl I loved cheated on me, broke up with me for someone else because of distance. When I took her back 4 months later under promises that she'll give long distance a 'serious effort'.. She cheated on me again, and broke up with me without telling me anything (I found out through one of her friends) I was 19.
- I attend college looking at a bright future in the Electrical trade. I start struggling 2 months in, and 6 months later they tell me I haven't been in the correct program since the beginning. I should have been in Electrical Industrial instead of Electrical Engineering.... Regardless, they take my money and discontinue my enrollment... Thanks Conestoga College. (20)
- 1 year later I attend another college in Video Game Design and Development. For 7 months my professor withheld everyone's marks on EVERYTHING (Exams, Assignments, etc.) and when we finally get to see our marks, I failed 2 courses and if I fail 1 more in the next year I may possibly be ejected. I said "Fuck You, I'm gone." and because those marks were withheld the school managed to steal $18,000's from me and I didn't get any refund because I was in the program too long... TriOS College is a scam, don't go there. (21-22)
So now here I am, 2 years later (24). Single (haven't even gotten a date in 5 years), no post-secondary education (even though it's not completely my fault), $11,000 in debt, still live with my parents, and I haven't been able to hold onto a job longer than 8 months (also currently unemployed). Been trying the Youtube scene, but even that is a floundering non-success, with just earning 38 subscribers in 10 months.
Do I go back to school for the "Third times the charm"? Even the Canadian Military on't even take me in. I feel worthless...
So yes, I have thought about suicide. But I won't. I couldn't imagine the toll that would take on my family. And for that, I must press on.
Unlike most cases, my thoughts of suicide have were not during middle school, in fact they were recent. Since leaving High School life hasn't been easy for me. In a way, I feel like I just can't catch a break you know? How can I break this down? I'll just list the ones that hover over me everyday:
- The girl I loved cheated on me, broke up with me for someone else because of distance. When I took her back 4 months later under promises that she'll give long distance a 'serious effort'.. She cheated on me again, and broke up with me without telling me anything (I found out through one of her friends) I was 19.
- I attend college looking at a bright future in the Electrical trade. I start struggling 2 months in, and 6 months later they tell me I haven't been in the correct program since the beginning. I should have been in Electrical Industrial instead of Electrical Engineering.... Regardless, they take my money and discontinue my enrollment... Thanks Conestoga College. (20)
- 1 year later I attend another college in Video Game Design and Development. For 7 months my professor withheld everyone's marks on EVERYTHING (Exams, Assignments, etc.) and when we finally get to see our marks, I failed 2 courses and if I fail 1 more in the next year I may possibly be ejected. I said "Fuck You, I'm gone." and because those marks were withheld the school managed to steal $18,000's from me and I didn't get any refund because I was in the program too long... TriOS College is a scam, don't go there. (21-22)
So now here I am, 2 years later (24). Single (haven't even gotten a date in 5 years), no post-secondary education (even though it's not completely my fault), $11,000 in debt, still live with my parents, and I haven't been able to hold onto a job longer than 8 months (also currently unemployed). Been trying the Youtube scene, but even that is a floundering non-success, with just earning 38 subscribers in 10 months.
Do I go back to school for the "Third times the charm"? Even the Canadian Military on't even take me in. I feel worthless...
So yes, I have thought about suicide. But I won't. I couldn't imagine the toll that would take on my family. And for that, I must press on.
Never in my life have I ever thought of killing myself. It's never been an option or even a possibility, and I've been pretty down at some points in my life. Wanting to end your own life is just a frame of mind I don't think I'll ever understand, but I certainly don't think less of those who consider it. You have to be seriously low to even think about it, and even lower to actually attempt it, and if you're that low, you don't need pity or contempt, you need help. Hopefully someone is around to help you, because I can't imagine any situation scarier than going through such a low point alone.
One of the guys I went to boot camp with did in fact kill himself afterwards (we went to different duty stations, so I wasn't aware of this for several months after it happened). I also recently learned that another guy from boot camp I still talk to had, some time ago, seriously considered suicide, but thankfully has since recovered and now advocates the Match Project [http://www.facebook.com/TheMatchProject].
One of the guys I went to boot camp with did in fact kill himself afterwards (we went to different duty stations, so I wasn't aware of this for several months after it happened). I also recently learned that another guy from boot camp I still talk to had, some time ago, seriously considered suicide, but thankfully has since recovered and now advocates the Match Project [http://www.facebook.com/TheMatchProject].
I do think about it, a lot. Ultimately, like most others, the thought of the grief it would bring upon my family holds me back, but often that just makes me feel more trapped.
My problem is that I just can't find anything to cling to, there's just nothing I can build a passion for, nothing in particular I really want out of life or want to pursue. I'm not down constantly or anything, but overall I feel like a useless person without any direction. I have no idea what my strengths are and what I'm good at. I'm 21 and my social life slipped away ages ago. I could go on with the bleak and dreary stuff.
I don't really want to be dead and I'll probably never actually commit suicide. But I really can't find anything to live for, either.
My problem is that I just can't find anything to cling to, there's just nothing I can build a passion for, nothing in particular I really want out of life or want to pursue. I'm not down constantly or anything, but overall I feel like a useless person without any direction. I have no idea what my strengths are and what I'm good at. I'm 21 and my social life slipped away ages ago. I could go on with the bleak and dreary stuff.
I don't really want to be dead and I'll probably never actually commit suicide. But I really can't find anything to live for, either.
Sure I've though about it. I've also though about stealing gum from stores. I would never do either, but they are thoughts that briefly flash though my head. It's normal to have weird and out-there thoughts but most people don't act on them.
I have thought of it quite a few times. Especially when I'm feeling really depressed. But I've never actually attempted to do so.
I just remind myself that there are people who care about me. And taking my own life won't solve anything and will just hurt those around me. My family is dysfunctional enough as it is right now. The last thing they need is to have to arrange my funeral.
I just remind myself that there are people who care about me. And taking my own life won't solve anything and will just hurt those around me. My family is dysfunctional enough as it is right now. The last thing they need is to have to arrange my funeral.
I've never really seriously considered it. There were times during puberty when I would complain about my life and how much it sucked but I never have really ever felt low enough to want to die. I have always enjoyed life far too much and even though I would get upset a lot with my family during my teen years, I always loved them and couldn't imagine not ever seeing them again.
Sadly, yes I was considering it a while back (about two or three years ago). I got as close as holding a gun to my head and considering pulling the trigger. However, I began to think about who I'd miss and who I believed would miss me, and about my dog. I thought about a couple of my really close friends, and my family and I decided to stop feeling sorry for myself and talk over my problems rather than ignoring them and letting them fester. I was going through a rough patch, and combined with hormones and some type of depression that I honestly can't remember right now, I felt like there was no other way out. I'm happy to say that with some medication and weekly visits to a psychiatrist for a bit over a year, I haven't considered it since then.
When I was younger, I thought about it. About 16 or 17, but I was just being an angst-y "look at me, I'm depressed" teenager. I snapped out of that mood at about 19 and haven't had a single suicidal/self-harming thought since.
If I ever did go through with it, it would be with a massive, and quite literal bang. Cop shoot out after attempting to rob a bank. Australia has harsh gun laws though, so I might have to find a different country to do it in.[footnote]Wink wink, America.[/footnote]
EDIT - That's not really suicide, though, is it? My intention would make it assisted suicide, but that's not how it would officially be taken as.
If I ever did go through with it, it would be with a massive, and quite literal bang. Cop shoot out after attempting to rob a bank. Australia has harsh gun laws though, so I might have to find a different country to do it in.[footnote]Wink wink, America.[/footnote]
EDIT - That's not really suicide, though, is it? My intention would make it assisted suicide, but that's not how it would officially be taken as.