IrisEver said:
Is there a reason you keep saying things like this? To be straightforward, assumptive, and rude, for a woman so dead-set on appearing strong, you seem awfully quick to try to garner pity. It's quite incongruous.
Let me elucidate on that...
IrisEver said:
What upsets me more is a man taking one look at me and thinking I'm weak -- especially if it's the sort of man I could have a relationship with who wants a more hotly tempered character, but he rejects me based on something far from reality. I'm quite short and feminine looking. It stings when it's assume you're not who you are, and even get rejection from it.
This statement, coupled with your vehement assertions throughout this thread that, no, you
are, in fact, violent, leads me to believe that your aggression and hot temper are not an intrinsic aspect of your personality, but rather, something you have developed due to feelings of frustration and inadequacy. Put differently, you have something you're desperate to prove: That you're not weak. And in order to prove it, you affect the polar opposite, behaving aggressively and violently so as to appear strong (the polar opposites approach is a tactic a lot of people employ without even realizing it, myself included).
Unfortunately, this tactic fails, and you have already experienced firsthand why. Being violent doesn't make you appear strong, it only makes you appear
dangerous. And while a
strong woman is attractive to most men, a
dangerous woman will actually
repel them. It has to do with survival instincts; people don't want to be involved with things they have good reason to believe will cause them harm. They generally don't walk near fires because they don't want to get burned; they generally don't walk near the edge of a roof because they don't want to fall off; and they generally aren't attracted to someone who is physically violent because they don't trust that person to maintain enough control and/or sympathy to not hurt them. Note I'm using the
actual definition of sympathy here, ie sharing & understanding the feelings of others, and not the synonym for 'pansy-ass pity' most people think it is.
Of course, this is all speculation. I've never met you in person, and I've read maybe two thousand words you've written online; that's hardly enough to claim I have an effusive understanding of your psyche, and I won't pretend otherwise. But it's something worth considering.
As for your qualms with guys wanting to be 'mothered', I've observed males behaving as such, and I agree, it's usually annoying and frustrating. The males I've seen in those situations are generally only in the relationship to fulfill their own selfish desires, to boot, so all the more reason to get the hell out. Which is not to say such a relationship dynamic is inherently bad; there are probably both men and women who want something like that. But I think it's important to differentiate between wanting to be coddled and wanting to be...open, I suppose is the best word. Cutting straight to the point, men in Western society are expected to never show any feeling whatsoever. It's an archaic and ridiculous standard, but it's there. With that in mind, many men, whether they realize it or not, seek out relationships with people they feel comfortable expressing their otherwise-repressed feelings to. But if they can't do that with a significant other, then...with whom? If a woman does to them the same thing society does, deriding them when they're trying to be real and honest about their feelings, then they aren't going to want to pursue a relationship with that woman.