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I'm just sick and tired of fucking life as it is right now. I feel like I have major anxiety problems and it bugs me everyday. I was stupid about how I handled my life and didn't get the best grades in high school and now I have to go to a damn community college before I can go to a university, all I want to do it go to college and get my damn computer engineering degree and move on with the rest of my life I don't like the idea of delaying what I really want to learn for another 2 years. I'm sick and tired of being constantly put in the friends zone with girls. I have a good personality, but I guess are scared off by my weight which I'm trying to lose (Already lost 20 pounds, but that isn't much considering my weight goal.) I'm sick and fucking tired of my friends with macs acting all smug about how they have a mac and think they're more tech savy for having one (Have you built 3 computers? No! Are you dual booting 2 operating systems? No! Can you code in Java? No! Hurrr durrr you get viruzzzsss Lolz! I haven't had a virus since XP and that's after I let someone use my computer.) So much more, but I don't want to make a 2 page post.
Edit: Holy crap at the time of making the post I didn't feel any better, but after about 10 minutes and reading other post I feel suddenly better. I love this site.
Edit: Holy crap at the time of making the post I didn't feel any better, but after about 10 minutes and reading other post I feel suddenly better. I love this site.
I have no job to distract me from the fact that my girlfriend spent this summer being single-mindedly selfish and ignoring me. Oh, then she cheated on me with an irresponsible, ignorant, thoughtless, manipulative asshole. He is a complete 180 of my personality, she described the sex as better, and him as far more attractive than I.
I could go on, the situation is fairly complex and we're still together, but the parts I want to selfishly rant about are there...
I could go on, the situation is fairly complex and we're still together, but the parts I want to selfishly rant about are there...
Wtf people? are you brits that fucking racist to paste blanket statements on a country thats 50 times bigger than you? Its not just the brits, but thats where the source of the most complaining has been heard.
and don't think you can get away with not giving the US the credit it deserves for WW2. You DID need us. OUR generals were the best. Why does nobody ever fucking mention Patton huh? It sure as hell wasn't bradley or monty or Ike that was the ruse on D-Day, no it was ol' blood and guts that even Rommel respected.
And what the hell escapist? bethesda is a fucking legitimate company. stop being such whiny bitches about retarded shit that you just want to blame on a company that actually produces quality games. Also, stop being so turned on by your own pretentiousness. I know its fantastic to be a total douche about things but seriously, cut the crap, give credit where credit is due.
This is cave Johnson-we're done here.
and don't think you can get away with not giving the US the credit it deserves for WW2. You DID need us. OUR generals were the best. Why does nobody ever fucking mention Patton huh? It sure as hell wasn't bradley or monty or Ike that was the ruse on D-Day, no it was ol' blood and guts that even Rommel respected.
And what the hell escapist? bethesda is a fucking legitimate company. stop being such whiny bitches about retarded shit that you just want to blame on a company that actually produces quality games. Also, stop being so turned on by your own pretentiousness. I know its fantastic to be a total douche about things but seriously, cut the crap, give credit where credit is due.
This is cave Johnson-we're done here.
I'm tired of living at home, not having a stable job or even getting an interview, dealing with my family's fragility and constant complaining, people sending me text messages when a phone call would work better, people not bothering to listen to phone messages, my brothers wasting their money on weed and then bitching about not having money, people saying they are going to do something and then just not do it and then get angry that it upset someone, constantly postponing things until the last second, and I'm frustrated with myself that my weight loss has stalled.
Thanks OP, I needed that.
Thanks OP, I needed that.
So I made an account just to reply to this I was planning on making one but was too lazy. Anyways to my venting I hate bad spelling now not simple mistakes but when people spell with words like cuz plz ur...anything that shortens an already short word its disgusting. Also girls my age (15) cant take a compliment without thinking I am some sort of stalker or creep, is saying "You look nice today." so wrong? Also my trust in anyone has gone down the drain since about a week ago the girl I was playing halo with who lived in the same city as me was just another 15 year old boy with a REALLY good girl voice. I considered suicide for about half the week after but got over it. (Had to edit thought of more stuff.)
Fucking desk-jockeys-turned-managers at work man, they're either the laziest bastards or complete dicks. Despite the fact that they never try to develop any kind of organization in the warehouse so that we can work faster, us folks on the low and forklifts get the blame for 'not working fast enough'. This is after our workload has increased about thirty percent over the past month. These jackasses sit around in the office all day doing very little and then give us shit for not filling in orders fast enough. One of them thinks its fucking funny to shine a laser pointer in my eye when I'm driving by on a lift, so I complained to the safety manager. Since there are no cameras in the office, he denied everything and he's the boss' cousin, while I've only been working there three months. So nepotism ensures that I'm stuck in unsafe work conditions with a fucking jackass. Fortunately I start school again soon, but I'm thinking I'll quit by the end of next week, I'm sick of getting treated like shit by desk jockeys who don't even know what hard work is.
I'm more amazed with how no one gives the Soviets the credit they deserve.health-bar said:
Why the hell is my ex still following me on everything? If I was worth your goddamn time, you should have, I dunno, used it to talk to me and not spend time with your freaking Halo clan 24/7. AGH. I PLAY HALO. I'D PLAY IT WITH YOU IF THAT'S ALL YOU WANTED TO DO. BUT NO. Fucking strangers on the internet were more important than the only person in the world who has ever supported you. Cortana said it best. "Don't make a girl a promise if you know you can't keep it."
... I just want a nice boyfriend and not a lazy jerk :|
... I just want a nice boyfriend and not a lazy jerk :|
To make a long story short, this customer comes in and starts to insult Puerto Ricans(not just Ricans, a lot of other Hispanic races too, not as much though). I happen to be half Puerto Rican, so when hes finished with his tirade(which started off on why the city was bankrupt, then moved on to illegal immigrants, which he thinks Puerto Ricans are for some reason) I take off my work shirt, I have a muscle shirt under it. With my arms exposed, I have my PR tattoo visible. The douchebag notices it.
Now this old ignorant fuck just looks at me, and before he can say anything I tell him,"Go fuck yourself, your mother, and this piece of shit you rode in on." He doesn't even know what to do and I scream at him to leave. He goes on to say he knows my boss and he'll call him. He leaves. My boss' friend who watched it all just laughs.
30 minutes later, my boss comes in, and sees me working, he notices that I'm pissed as hell. He asks his friend what happened. His buddy starts to tell him, and I notice my boss' eyes widen, then he comes up to me and says,"You ok?" I look at him and told him I'm fine, but he tells me to take the rest of the day off and come in the next day, and that I don't need to worry about a "racist jackass." There are little moments where I love my boss, then theres most of the moments where I want him to get off my ass. YES GOD DAMNIT, I SWEEPED UP ALL THE DIRT, EMPTIED THE GARBAGE CANS, PLUCKED ALL THE WEEDS, AND I JUST CHANGED THE OIL ON 27 CARS IN 5 HOURS. GOD FORBID YOU SEE ME SIT ON MY ASS FOR 10 MINUTES WHEN EVERYTHING IS FUCKING DONE.
Now this old ignorant fuck just looks at me, and before he can say anything I tell him,"Go fuck yourself, your mother, and this piece of shit you rode in on." He doesn't even know what to do and I scream at him to leave. He goes on to say he knows my boss and he'll call him. He leaves. My boss' friend who watched it all just laughs.
30 minutes later, my boss comes in, and sees me working, he notices that I'm pissed as hell. He asks his friend what happened. His buddy starts to tell him, and I notice my boss' eyes widen, then he comes up to me and says,"You ok?" I look at him and told him I'm fine, but he tells me to take the rest of the day off and come in the next day, and that I don't need to worry about a "racist jackass." There are little moments where I love my boss, then theres most of the moments where I want him to get off my ass. YES GOD DAMNIT, I SWEEPED UP ALL THE DIRT, EMPTIED THE GARBAGE CANS, PLUCKED ALL THE WEEDS, AND I JUST CHANGED THE OIL ON 27 CARS IN 5 HOURS. GOD FORBID YOU SEE ME SIT ON MY ASS FOR 10 MINUTES WHEN EVERYTHING IS FUCKING DONE.
I recently lost 50 lbs of fat and have gotten in quite good shape, mainly for the purpose of boosting my self confidence, and then tonight on my way home from seeing rise of the planet of the apes with my friends, they all start saying that i wouldnt be able to find a girlfriend, and that even though I've changed my body completely. The thing that pisses me off is that ive actually been in a relationship before, and one of these guys hasnt, and the other one is a real creep who insults his girlfriend behind her back and says he finds her brother sexually attractive. The whole situation is enough to make me want to just scream in frustration.
I don't know if its your story, your avatar or THIS FUCKING BEAUTIFUL MUSIC THAT IS TITILATING MY EARS RIGHT NOW, but that was really moving.Vangaurd227 said:
*Hugs*
As for myself, worrying about a career path (currently in college) is really annoying.
At first, I was majoring in Physics but that got really boring, dull, and consequently, I didn't study enough. I'm lucky I got a C, and that was because the curve gave me that for getting a fucking average of 50. What a joke. I shouldn't even have passed that. Thing is, sometimes I doubt myself and wonder if I did so poorly because I just lacked the competence and diligence to succeed. These thoughts basically crashed my self-esteem.
I got so apathetic about my work that I nearly fucked up my grade in English ("College Writing"). I kept procrastinating to the point of fucking myself over despite that fact that I was easily the best writer in my class. Not that that goes for much. Everyone else in that class could hardly write a decent essay.
And the thing that constantly ebbs at my pride is the fact that I'm attending Umass Lowell- a state school- while everyone I know is at some god damn private school. Most of them can seem to afford it somehow too. (I went to a private High School which explains why so many of my classmates are richer).
It just makes me feel like some kind of joke.
Academically, my first year left me feeling really unsatisfied.
Now I've switched my major to Psychology because I found it more interesting, but the two classes I've had in psych so far have been so fucking easy they feel like a joke. It also seems like every fucking time I go into chat channels or talk with people with engineering/bio majors, they shit on other majors.
People seem to say that their aren't any jobs outside of those fucking dry majors, and it makes me wonder what the fucking purpose is of any other major then.
So am I really spending all this money on college for a glorified fucking piece of paper? WHAT. THE. FUCK.
Shit like this makes me and my work feel pointless.
WHY DO SOME PEOPLE HAVE TO JUST SHIT ALL OVER MY FUCKING DESIRES. FUCK.
-breath-
But yeah, those anxieties were sharper back in the early half of the summer. Now I'm eager to continue learning and hopefully find something worthwhile and engaging.
I could whine about the lack of romance in my life, but fuck that. One thing at a time
Great Idea for a thread. Reading through the posts is really interesting.
I've just been told by my father that we'll have to move again, It's not by choice, we have to. Right now, we live in a fairly rural area, plenty of privacy, plenty of space, we can do what we want, go for walks on the expansive property, target shoot with my father using his rifles (we take very good care and it's completely safe BTW), and we finally just got a great internet connection a few months ago as well. The mortgage on the property is just too damn expensive, my father originally bought the place with his GF, she's now moved out, he can't buy her half from her and continue to pay the mortgage himself, he also needs to pay the mortgage on my mother's house because she is no longer working (she hasn't worked since she and my dad divorced, oh... six years ago), and she seems to be making no effort to find herself a job (I haven't a clue what happened to her old job), so my father is stuck paying two mortgages. If my mother had a job and could pay her own mortgage, we'd be able to stay where we are, and not have to worry about the hassle of moving, and not have to leave this home which I love (I didn't grow up here, I just love the place). We'll have to move to a place with much less land, which I'm not crazy about because of lack of freedom. I'll be at the same school, so that is pretty good. I will definitely stay with my father though, he's great, my mother and I just argue most of the time. It'll get sorted out, and life will go on, It's all just a ball-ache.
whoa... that felt good, sorry about the length
I've just been told by my father that we'll have to move again, It's not by choice, we have to. Right now, we live in a fairly rural area, plenty of privacy, plenty of space, we can do what we want, go for walks on the expansive property, target shoot with my father using his rifles (we take very good care and it's completely safe BTW), and we finally just got a great internet connection a few months ago as well. The mortgage on the property is just too damn expensive, my father originally bought the place with his GF, she's now moved out, he can't buy her half from her and continue to pay the mortgage himself, he also needs to pay the mortgage on my mother's house because she is no longer working (she hasn't worked since she and my dad divorced, oh... six years ago), and she seems to be making no effort to find herself a job (I haven't a clue what happened to her old job), so my father is stuck paying two mortgages. If my mother had a job and could pay her own mortgage, we'd be able to stay where we are, and not have to worry about the hassle of moving, and not have to leave this home which I love (I didn't grow up here, I just love the place). We'll have to move to a place with much less land, which I'm not crazy about because of lack of freedom. I'll be at the same school, so that is pretty good. I will definitely stay with my father though, he's great, my mother and I just argue most of the time. It'll get sorted out, and life will go on, It's all just a ball-ache.
whoa... that felt good, sorry about the length
I was picking out my dinner in our local supermarket today when Moby Dick comes rolling by on a scooter loaded with nothing but frozen pizza, candy, and ice cream. He runs OVER MY FUCKING FOOT with his 400 pound lard tub of a body on that scooter, then has the balls to call me a "Skinny *****" when I call him out on it. I felt like grabbing a steak knife from the kitchen supply section, cutting him in half and watching him bleed steak sauce. Two of my toes are broken, but I'm not going to sue because of how fucking merciful I've decided to be. Fat Acceptance my ass, lose some weight you piles of cottage cheese. I don't care how "hard" it is for a walrus like you to exercise or eat right, it's completely possible to lose weight as long as you---get this---exercise each day and not eat crap 24/7. NOTHING in the world is preventing you from exercising and eating right, not any disease, not any bad luck, not any mental condition.
I need a fucking job. I've been spending the last few weeks handing out resumes and applications in hopes of at least a seasonal job or something part-time, ideally. No responses, not even an interview. I'm tired of straining my parents for money and my sister's fucking attitude when I need help. For some reason, it doesn't matter if financial aid fucked me over or if I forgot to complete a task she NEVER mentioned I should do, it's all apparently my fault.
Somewhere down the line, she developed this superiority complex that because she's older by 6 years, she knows everything, and because we live long distance, she just has to hang up the phone when things don't go her way and is safe knowing there's nothing I can do about it.
At least my brother's here. At least I have his support, even if I do feel bad that he uses his money to help me out. Now I'm in the realization that some of my best friends are drifting away. Now I only have one left. She's awesome, but we rarely hang out as much as I'd like. Now, I'm stuck at home all day until the next semester, hanging on to the hope that financial aid won't screw me over again and will cover my classes and books.
And I haven't had any type of creative spark for any of my stories for many months now. Getting frustrated.
And it seems that I get rather unhappy with myself every other day. Unfortunately, it's been following this pattern for the last 3 years. I wish I knew what the cause was, but I guess I'll manage through.
By the way, thanks for the thread. It's good to vent, but I wish there was a companion thread for the cheer ups now.
Somewhere down the line, she developed this superiority complex that because she's older by 6 years, she knows everything, and because we live long distance, she just has to hang up the phone when things don't go her way and is safe knowing there's nothing I can do about it.
At least my brother's here. At least I have his support, even if I do feel bad that he uses his money to help me out. Now I'm in the realization that some of my best friends are drifting away. Now I only have one left. She's awesome, but we rarely hang out as much as I'd like. Now, I'm stuck at home all day until the next semester, hanging on to the hope that financial aid won't screw me over again and will cover my classes and books.
And I haven't had any type of creative spark for any of my stories for many months now. Getting frustrated.
And it seems that I get rather unhappy with myself every other day. Unfortunately, it's been following this pattern for the last 3 years. I wish I knew what the cause was, but I guess I'll manage through.
By the way, thanks for the thread. It's good to vent, but I wish there was a companion thread for the cheer ups now.
Dear best friend, I know we don't talk very much anymore. But there's a good reason for that; I'm in love with you and have been for years. Every time I see you with him I don't know what today. Maybe I could kill him? But now, you're moving away and I might never see you again.
Do you know how beautiful I think you are?
Do you know that I think about you every day?
I guess you might. But I suppose it doesn't matter anymore. Not like I'm too worried, for some reason I never get properly worried about anything. I just wish you could take a look inside my head and then you'd understand everything. You might not want to talk to me ever again, and I would understand. You always underestimated my capacity to understand.
Well, I'll miss you.
/Later.
Do you know how beautiful I think you are?
Do you know that I think about you every day?
I guess you might. But I suppose it doesn't matter anymore. Not like I'm too worried, for some reason I never get properly worried about anything. I just wish you could take a look inside my head and then you'd understand everything. You might not want to talk to me ever again, and I would understand. You always underestimated my capacity to understand.
Well, I'll miss you.
/Later.
Well I have several matters to vent about, and I guess I might as well, though I normally wouldn't participate in this type of thread.
Matter 1: I'm still in love with my ex-girlfriend, and I hate it. I absolutely hate that I love her. I want to hate her, but I can't. Why? No idea, pisses me off.
No. 2 (spoilered to save space)
No 3: I haven't slept well for three weeks now. Schools getting ready to start up again, and I need to sleep. Last night I drank (not took, drank!) cough medicine to help me sleep. I slept for one and half hours, then I was wide awake for another four and half hours till I finally managed to fall into a restless sleep.
I have a lot more stuff, but man, I feel a little bit better already. I also just noticed that I make very few typos when typing posts for the Escapist, while chatting with friends I have to backspace every five seconds to correct something.
Matter 1: I'm still in love with my ex-girlfriend, and I hate it. I absolutely hate that I love her. I want to hate her, but I can't. Why? No idea, pisses me off.
No. 2 (spoilered to save space)
My cousin is dating the most obsessive ***** I've ever met (I apologize for the rudeness, but sadly, it's true). He can't even hang out with me, not only his best (and only!) friend, but his cousin, without getting bitched at for not being home when she gets home or some stupid crap. I hate her. He hates her. Now the other day, he finally grows a pair and tells her it's over. She has so much control over him that I haven't been able to speak with him since the incident, as she's taken his phone so he can't have contact with anyone save her. I have been working for the past two months to get them to break up, and he finally does it, then he chickens out. I am so pissed off at him right now.
I have a lot more stuff, but man, I feel a little bit better already. I also just noticed that I make very few typos when typing posts for the Escapist, while chatting with friends I have to backspace every five seconds to correct something.
Okay here I go.
I FUCKING HATE READING! I think it's boring, no matter how compelling a book is it's much more fun to listen to music or play a video game. I was raised in a house wear I was taught "you're life depends on reading books." If I need to read a book on how to fix a pipe, fine I'll do it, or maybe I'll just call a professional to do it for me. I'll read a book if I want to but I think it's just plain boring.
I don't want to take my pills. No mom, I don't think taking ADHD pills will help me do better in school. I goes against my free will and I consider it slavery in a since. Oh what's that? I got a "C" in Language Arts and I'm not going to live a happy and long successful life with that grades like that? No, I didn't fail to pay attention in class, you know what made me get a "C"? I DIDN'T FUCKING READ A BOOK AND TAKE A STUPID MOTHERFUCKING QUIZ ON IT BECAUSE BOOKS ARE TOO DAMN BORING!
No dad, I don't want to hear about how you raised your brothers at the age of 5. Why? Because it would be the 18th FUCKING time that you did this week. I don't care if you we're a cop at Bangkok at age 14. Here in America, WE DON'T FUCKING HAVE CHILD LABOR!
Don't give me shit for being a Juggalo. Alright, I have a taste in music that you think is dumb. Do I give a fuck? No. Don't bring up "fuckin magnets how do they work?" and how it was stupid. Everybody in this thread has seen one thing and wanted to know how it worked, an electric guitar, a car, the human body, anything. Don't tell me "there fanbase is white trash retards." Of course you make fun of them, they're the people you've always made fun of, the outcast you see sitting alone at the lunch table.
Fred Durst you are a massive tool.
Jersey Shore? Real Housewives? I tried to watch these shows and quite literally felt my IQ dropping.
Greyson Chance, Cody Simpson, and teenybopper, I hope you are aware that nobody is going to know you in 3 years.
Justin Beiber, you are the bodily representation of everythings that's wrong with the modern music industry.
No you redneck chicken fuck, don't tell me how you shot a 12 point buck or whatever it is they measure game in. I'm going to say something about myself and you just say how you've done some shit I don't care about. I don't care if you got 41 kills in a game of Black Ops, no I don't care you broke your arm from being a dumb ass and trying to ramp over a river.
Rene (sister) YOU'RE NOT FUCKING BETTER THAN THE REST OF THE HUMAN RACE! Get out of your world where your family is a source of money.
I have more so I might even come back to this thread a few time over a period of time.
I FUCKING HATE READING! I think it's boring, no matter how compelling a book is it's much more fun to listen to music or play a video game. I was raised in a house wear I was taught "you're life depends on reading books." If I need to read a book on how to fix a pipe, fine I'll do it, or maybe I'll just call a professional to do it for me. I'll read a book if I want to but I think it's just plain boring.
I don't want to take my pills. No mom, I don't think taking ADHD pills will help me do better in school. I goes against my free will and I consider it slavery in a since. Oh what's that? I got a "C" in Language Arts and I'm not going to live a happy and long successful life with that grades like that? No, I didn't fail to pay attention in class, you know what made me get a "C"? I DIDN'T FUCKING READ A BOOK AND TAKE A STUPID MOTHERFUCKING QUIZ ON IT BECAUSE BOOKS ARE TOO DAMN BORING!
No dad, I don't want to hear about how you raised your brothers at the age of 5. Why? Because it would be the 18th FUCKING time that you did this week. I don't care if you we're a cop at Bangkok at age 14. Here in America, WE DON'T FUCKING HAVE CHILD LABOR!
Don't give me shit for being a Juggalo. Alright, I have a taste in music that you think is dumb. Do I give a fuck? No. Don't bring up "fuckin magnets how do they work?" and how it was stupid. Everybody in this thread has seen one thing and wanted to know how it worked, an electric guitar, a car, the human body, anything. Don't tell me "there fanbase is white trash retards." Of course you make fun of them, they're the people you've always made fun of, the outcast you see sitting alone at the lunch table.
Fred Durst you are a massive tool.
Jersey Shore? Real Housewives? I tried to watch these shows and quite literally felt my IQ dropping.
Greyson Chance, Cody Simpson, and teenybopper, I hope you are aware that nobody is going to know you in 3 years.
Justin Beiber, you are the bodily representation of everythings that's wrong with the modern music industry.
No you redneck chicken fuck, don't tell me how you shot a 12 point buck or whatever it is they measure game in. I'm going to say something about myself and you just say how you've done some shit I don't care about. I don't care if you got 41 kills in a game of Black Ops, no I don't care you broke your arm from being a dumb ass and trying to ramp over a river.
Rene (sister) YOU'RE NOT FUCKING BETTER THAN THE REST OF THE HUMAN RACE! Get out of your world where your family is a source of money.
I have more so I might even come back to this thread a few time over a period of time.
HEY KITCHEN CLOSES IN 2 MINUTES I'M ORDERING 30 CHICKEN WING, 10 PIZZA LOGS, 3 CHESSEBURGERS, AND 2 SALADS HAVE FUN STAYING AN EXTRA HOUR EVEN THOUGH YOU ALREADY CLEANED UP THE KITCHEN!!!
I hate those people
I hate those people